sentiments of the heart

ONE.Give people more than they expect and do it cheerfully.

TWO. Marry a man/woman you love to talk to. As you get older, their conversational skills will be as important as any other.

THREE.Don't believe all you hear, spend all you have or sleep all you want.

FOUR. When you say, "I love you ," mean it.

FIVE.When you say, "I'm sorry," look the person in the eye.

SIX. Be engaged at least six months before you get married.

SEVEN.Believe in love at first sight.

EIGHT.Never laugh at anyone's dream. People who don't have dreams don't have much.

NINE. Love deeply and passionately. You might get hurt but it's the only way to live life completely.

TEN.. In disagreements, fight fairly. No name calling.

ELEVEN. Don't judge people by their relatives.

TWELVE.Talk slowly but think quickly.

THIRTEEN. When someone asks you a question you don't want to answer, smile and ask, "Why do you want to know?"

FOURTEEN. Remember that great love and great achievements involve great risk.

FIFTEEN.Say "bless you" when you hear someone sneeze.

SIXTEEN. When you lose, don't lose the lesson !

SEVENTEEN. Remember the three R's: Respect for self; Respect for others; and responsibility for all your actions.

EIGHTEEN.Don't let a little dispute injure a great friendship.

NINETEEN.When you realize you've made a mistake, take immediate steps to correct it.

TWENTY.Smile when picking up the phone The caller will hear it in your voice.

lessons?

ONE.Give people more than they expect and do it cheerfully.
TWO. Marry a man/woman you love to talk to. As you get older, their conversational skills will be as important as any other.
THREE.Don't believe all you hear, spend all you have or sleep all you want.
FOUR. When you say, "I love you ," mean it.
FIVE.When you say, "I'm sorry," look the person in the eye.
SIX. Be engaged at least six months before you get married.
SEVEN.Believe in love at first sight.
EIGHT.Never laugh at anyone's dream. People who don't have dreams don't have much.
NINE. Love deeply and passionately. You might get hurt but it's the only way to live life completely.
TEN.. In disagreements, fight fairly. No name calling.
ELEVEN. Don't judge people by their relatives.
TWELVE.Talk slowly but think quickly.
THIRTEEN. When someone asks you a question you don't want to answer, smile and ask, "Why do you want to know?"
FOURTEEN. Remember that great love and great achievements involve great risk. FIFTEEN.Say "bless you" when you hear someone sneeze.
SIXTEEN. When you lose, don't lose the lesson !
SEVENTEEN. Remember the three R's: Respect for self; Respect for others; and responsibility for all your actions.
EIGHTEEN.Don't let a little dispute injure a great friendship.
NINETEEN.When you realize you've made a mistake, take immediate steps to correct it.
TWENTY.Smile when picking up the phone The caller will hear it in your voice.

blue eyes blue...

I thought that you'd be loving me
I thought you were the one who'd stay forever
But now forever's come and gone
And I'm still here alone

'Cause you were only playing
You were only playing with my heart
I was never waiting, I was never waiting for the tears to start

It was you
Who put the clouds around me
It was you
Who made the tears fall down
It was you
Who broke my heart in pieces
It was you, it was you
Who made my blue eyes blue

Oh, Never should have trusted you

I thought that I'd be all you need
In your eyes I thought I saw my heaven
And now my heavens gone away
And I'm out in the cold

'Cause you had me believing
You had me believing in a lie
Guess I couldn't see it
Guess I couldn't see it till I saw goodbye

It was you
Who put the clouds around me
It was you
Who made the tears fall down
It was you
Who broke my heart in pieces
It was you, it was you
Who made my blue eyes blue

Oh, Never should have trusted you

' Cause you were only playing
You were only playing with my heart
I was never waiting
I was never waiting for the tears to start

It was you
Who put the clouds around me
It was you
It was you
Who put those clouds around me
It was you
Who made the tears fall down
Only you
Who broke my heart in pieces
It was you
It was you
Who made my blue eyes blue

oh, never should have trusted you
oh, never should have trusted you
oh, never should have trusted you
oh, never should have trusted you

that song was sung by eric clapton...it is part of the sooundtrack of runaway bride...

it made me think of my relationship with someone i thought i knew...

and it pains me because i know deep in my heart, everything about US is lost..

i thought everything was perfect until i saw the pieces of my heart fall...

my eyes are not blue but my eyes are wet from endless crying... 

i know HE IS NOT WORTH ALL THE TEARS I'VE CRIED AND TEARS THAT I KNOW I WILL STILL SHED...

i still love him...but i also love myself...i gave up the fight... i gave him up..

well, he never gave a comment 'bout this but i think his silence means that he agrees that it must end...

now...i will start to pick up the pieces of my broken heart...i will try to learn the art of letting go...

well...i guess i will never really get over him...

i will just be used to the fact that he is not with me anymore...

he never was...

he never is..

he never will... 

love...will i let go or hold on...

a feeling i tried so hard to avoid...

but it seems that cupid struck his arrow and now i'm bleeding..

i don't know where to stand..

tomorrow will be our first anniversary and i doubt if we will last..i never thiught that i would feel this again..

i want to cry...

but i can't..

and i won't...

love...will i let go or hold on...

a sweet proposal..

girl:
i love you

-Boy:
yeah i know everyone does!

-Girl:
really?

-Boy:
yeah... everyone of my friends that
are girls tell me that everyday

-Girl:
oh... but am i only your friend?

-Boy:
no... youre my girlfriend... why?

-Girl:
so when i say i love you i really do
mean it

-Boy:
yeah i know you do mean it... its just
that you dont need to tell me that you
love me anymore cuz i know you love me
since the day we been together and i
love you more each and everyday.

-Girl:
......

-Boy:
so wanna go somewhere tonight for our
7th anni?

-Girl:
yeah... where?

-Boy:
i dont know... maybe movie then dinner?

-Girl:
ok

-Boy:
ill pick you up after i get off and
get ready ok?

-Girl:
ok. what time do you get off?

-Boy:
in 2 hours and then i gotta go home
and yeah get ready which takes about
15-20 mintues...

-Girl:
aye... i thought you didnt have work
today...

-Boy:
one of my co-workers called in sick

-Girl:
oh okay! so ill see you around 7:30
then?

-Boy:
yeah! and babe?

-Girl:
yeah?

-Boy:
i love you

-Girl:
i love you too!

-Boy:
ok my manager is like looking at me so
yeah.... i gotta go.

-Girl:
ok bye

-Boy:
bye



****************************



2 hours later...

the guy drives to his girlfriends
house and walks up to the door and
rings bell


-Girl:
hey! (gives a kiss to her boyfriend)

-Boy:
wassup... you ready?

-Girl:
um... wait... let me get my bag and we
can go ok?

-Boy:
ok


they both watched a movie and ate
dinner.... once they were done eating
they head back to the car but before
she got into the car...



-Boy:
wait! can i blind fold you?



-Girl:
why??!

-Boy:
its a suprise

-Girl:
what kind of suprise?

-Boy:
a big one

-Girl:
okay but only if you promise me that
you will hold my hand while we're
driving.

-Boy:
i promise.

-Girl:
ok blind fold me...


so they drove off........... and then
they stoped.

-Boy:
ok we're here!

-Girl:
where?

-Boy:
wait let me walk you to the place!

-Girl:
what place?


-Boy:
somewhere! (and gives a kiss to her on
the lips)

-Girl:
babe!...

the boy walks her to the place


-Boy:
ok.... let me take the blind fold off

-Girl:
where are we?


he takes it off her and she opens her
eyes and sees the view of the city and
at that same spot... thats where he
first asked her to be his
Girlfriend....



-Girl:
omg.... (tears come down)


-Boy:
why are you crying?


-Girl:
this is where you first asked me out...


-Boy:
what are you doing the rest of your
life? (he asked on his knees and after
he says that...behind him... in the
air it says "will you marry me?" in
firworks)

-Girl:
(tears come down faster)

-Boy:
i wasnt at work when you called me...
i was planning this whole thing!


-Girl:
get up!

-Boy:
yeah?

-Girl:
(kisses him)

-Boy:
is that a yes or a no?

-Girl:
yes

My Greatest Failure in Life

When I heard the topic for our reflection my mind was filled of so many things to write about but now that I am typing this reflection I realized that all the pink paper in the world won't be enough just because in the seventeen years of my life it has been filled with so many frustrations. Frustrations...so many...i can't even count them and I won't bother to reminisce those...but there is one event in my life that up to now makes me sad and...I guess frustrated.

My greatest frustration was way back my elementary years. At that time I never really cared about writing, I just write for the sake of getting good grades and maintaining my honor. But one afternoon while I was in our TLE class our teacher in English called me and said that Ma'am Baltong wanted to talk to me(she is the teacher in English VI and the coordinator of our school paper)...I was really nervous because she has this reputation of being so strict and being a terror teacher...She talked to me and how I wished she would get staight to what are her intentions so that my heart would stop beating fast...then I was shocked when she said that I will compete for the Division Schools Press Conference...a competition for newspaper writers...I was really nervous and ecstatic at the same time...from then on I was kinda confident about my wrting prowess since all my past teachers in my lower years recommended me...added to that I won my first competition. I was really proud of myself and that event started my writing career. When I was in grade six, I was devastated...shocked and frustrated...I lost in the competition...I cried...really cried hard...I was really ashamed of myself. I can't forgive myself. I felt so bad because I failed myself...our school...and my mentors. I was depressed that time and no words of encouragement can pull me out of my predicament. I walked in the school with my head bowed...I can't look them in the eye. Time passed and Ma'am Baltong talked to me and I cried with her statement..."The greatest failure in life is not when you lost a battle...it is when you stop trying...we all get wounded...defeated and there may be times when you think you can't stand anymore...but when you do that you really failed. Nothing is really over until you stop trying. Learn from your imperfections and mistakes because all your mistakes...all your imperfections are the very things that make you whole...". I was really comforted and I realized that I had made the biggest mistake of letting my failure stop me from doing greater things.

Now I still love to write...and I will never stop just because of failures. I admit that I am a frustrated writer and I still have so many things to learn. And I know I will have my share of tears and defeat but I am ready...I won't forget my greatest frustration and that is when I let my failure and frustration get the best out of me. That part of my life made me accept the fact that...."Life is tough...but I can be tougher...."....AU REVOIR!!!!!

Confused...

i don't know how to start...its just that this has been in my mind since...ahhh!! i want to punch him...kick him....slap him and maybe all i really want is for me to hate him... questions never4 left my mind since that day...january 13... i was and let me say that i am still hurting when i heard him say that it's okaay for him if we broke up.. he just made it worst when he added slight....SLIGHT???!!!!.... upon hearing that i never gave a damn if it is just slight...or whatever you may call it... i just felt so dumb and hopeless...believing that we have will last till forever...

i never thought....

i wasn't expecting a text from him after what i did....

i thought it was the end...

i was really down this past few days....

i am lonely without him...i mean my life without him is....

not a life after all...

maybe i am exaggerating but its true...

he is not just my boyfriend...

i consider him as my KYUT bestfriend...

i can tell him everything....

with him i am assured that someone will accept me...

i love him...soooo much....that it hurts... 

Someday....

Someday you'll gonna realize
One day you'll see it through my eyes
But then i won't even be there
I'll be happy somewhere
Even if i can't

I know
You don't really see my worth
You think you're the last guy on earth
Well i've got news for you
I know i'm not that strong
But it won't take long
Won't take long

Chorus

Coz someday, someone's gonna love me
The way, i want you to need me
Someday, someone's gonna take your place
One day i'll forget about you
You'll see, i won't even miss you
Someday, someday

Right now
I know you can tell
I'm down,and i'm not doin' well
But one day these tears
They will all run dry
I won't have to cry
Sweet goodbye

Chorus

Coz someday, someone's gonna love me
The way, i want you to need me
Someday, someone's gonna take your place
One day i'll forget about you
You'll see, i won't even miss you
Someday,
I know someone's gonne be there

Someday, someone's gonna love me
The way, i want you to need me
Someday, someone's gonna take your place
One day i'll forget about you
You'll see, i won't even miss you
Someday, someday

it's new year.....a time to make decisions....and i just made mine....

its been bugging me for weeks...and january 8 is the day that i know i should be happy cause it is our tenth mothsary..

but then i chose to break up with him...

actually it is not official since we never really talked about it...

i just texted him...

sying "its been bugging me for days.this is a decision i have to make...i must break up with you".....

i know is was really wrong to send that message but unfortunately i cant take back the words...

and its been 2 days and still he didn't reply...

i don't know what's on his mind..

maybe he is shocked or maybe angry is the best word...

hope i can talk to him so that things can be clear...

i am emphasizing the word MUST...

I DONT WANT TO BREAK UP WITH HIM...

CAUSE I REALLY WANT TO STAY WITH HIM FOREVER...

but there are things that must be done...

it really hurts me...

i love him...and i think too much for my own good..

i need to arrange my life...

i need to find and love myself...

i have to do this decision cause i owe it to myself and especially to him..

cause i know that if we broke up...deep in my heart i know there wont be another....

and he really loves me he will...he would really understand...

and maybe wait for me too(hehehe...hope springs eternal...)

...but then if he cant then we're not meant....

i know deep here in my heart...

 and God knows that he is the only guy i want to spend the rest of my life...

and true love will really wait....

i love him...

maybe this is not the right time for us....

someday...

one day...

please know that i am forever changed cause of what you've meant to me...

and i know as long as i am still strong...i will always love you...

hope we can talk....that may be our last...so please....